what am i feeling now ?
2012年10月24日星期三 | 20:33 | 1 Comment[s]
oh great.. i really don't know what's wrong with me..
i have a feeling towards someone..

but i think twice,
feeling cannot take as a LOVE
i cannot bcoz of that feeling and couple with that person
right.. jz be honest..
that "hurt" still deeply inside my heart.
maybe bcoz of "that" i scared to fall in love again..
at the first sight... its a beautiful and nice stories..
but when it comes to the end,
it's a broken and ugly story...

yea i experience it, and i learn frm it
and now my heart...
i don't know how to describe but..
what i know is i keep telling myself..
not to fall in love so easily...
to protect my heart frm broken again
not to say that im selfish but...
i don't want to hurt that person too~

i still care, maybe it's love and maybe it's not
在我心里还是有很多很多心事
不知道要怎么说出来

最近有个变态一直找我 恐吓我
我不知道要怎么办
头头来很怕又很担心
但过了那一个月
无论他再怎么找我我也不会有什么感觉
没再怕了。。
现在我的心不知怎么痛痛的
就...喜欢可是却很怕会受到伤害
所以我只能这样子下去
不想告诉任何人
在我眼里,
无论告诉他人
也改变不了什么
这就是事实。。
我学会了独立
虽然看起来很像5/6岁的小孩子
外表开开心心的
好像没什么烦恼似的
但是“心痛”也不能从表情上漏出丫

我还是会微笑的告诉你我没事
只好闷在心里了...
是我不够成熟吗?

只有一个人了解我,
就算我在怎么伪装
他都会看得出
就说“能不能不要骗我了,我知道你在想什么”
有时你的这一句话
让我的眼泪不知不觉的掉下
因为只有你知道
我是个怎样的人....
就算不说..
